Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Sacrificial Lamb - 8.20.2014 [Abraham]

Molly

The passing of time was becoming a regular rhythm with when Abraham and Molly would interact.  The first time they'd met in the park a month had passed before Molly had called.  Then, again, time was let to slip before she reached out once more.

This time around she reached out because she told herself she needed closure, because she had questions that needed answered.  In truth it was because the visions wouldn't shake from her dreams and the paranoia wouldn't leave her bones.  Because she kept resting her phone's contacts list on his name, and because her thoughts kept trailing back.  Because she kept looking for him on that park bench when she went jogging.  Because the radio silence was fucking intolerable, even though self-preservation should be thankful for it.

So, she would finally break and send a text nearly a month later.  As though it were becoming a tradition, they'd agreed to meet precisely a month after they had last.  Molly had selected a bar, told him the name and address, an a time that she would be there.

When Abraham arrived, he'd find Molly there waiting.  The Irish Snug was a popular enough bar, but not incredibly crowded on a Wednesday evening.  The fenced-in patio out front housed a dozen or so wire circle tables, and iron-wrought fencing to separate the space from the sidewalk.  Molly was sitting at a table in a corner created by the front window of the establishment and the fence that claimed the patio space.

She had a pint of beer in front of her, sipped down to about 3/4ths full, and was doing something with her phone to occupy herself while she waited.  She wore her hair down tonight, with bangs swept across her forehead and red tresses in loose waves that sat on her shoulders.  Her legs were left bare by the white shorts that she was wearing, crossed at the knee with a sandaled foot bouncing under the table.  A bold blue tank-top was cut low and loose on the chest and shoulders, was cut to give comfortable space around the stomach and waist.  A gold chain necklace and bangles served as decoration, and make-up was light and summery rather than darker as she may normally choose for a night out.

A scrape was still in the final stages of healing on her right shoulder, a matching mark on the same arm's elbow.  Other than this, she appeared to be in fine health.  Tense, perhaps, but that was with reason.


Abe

Abraham arrives at the time and place marked out in the text message. He wears a pair of tough looking khakis, blue carpenter's pants made for holding up to the elements and whatever other wear and tear he might throw himself into, and a tailored denim shirt buttoned neatly up to his neck and around his wrists. He does not seem stifled by the way it contains him, collared and cuffed, moving calmly through the bar with even paces and a bowed head, hands in his pockets until he pulls up next to her.

The mad vampire climbs up onto a chair beside her. His hair is tied in a black bandana, the knotted little chunks of bound together braids pulled back, and his sneakers hand onto the rungs of the chairs so that his knees rise up in front of his chest. He places forearm on top of forearm, but atop the peaks of his knees, and looks over them at her when he rests his chin on them.

"You got banged up," he comments, looking to her arm, but not over the rest of her body. His eyes go back to her face. Rest on her own.


Molly

His approach did not go unnoticed.  This could be blamed on the faint, humming, dying power of what was left of his blood within her.  It could be the sensitive ears and sense of surroundings in general.  Could also be just that she was waiting on him in general, and had been anticipating his arrival.  Either way, her eyes had hopped up to find him before he was even at the propped-open gate to the patio.

Molly offered no smiles to greet Abraham when he folded himself into a chair beside her.  She didn't look cold, necessarily, did not scowl at him.  She was simply watchful.  What trust may have been forming had been dashed to the wind, and he knew precisely why.  So she was cautious, watchful, and wary.

Blue eyes hopped down to her arm when he made mention of her nearly-healed abrasions, and that same raw-skinned shoulder rolled in a shrug to dismiss the comment.  "That's nothing compared to the other guy."  She reached for her pint and took a drink, and kept her hand wrapped about the glass when she rested it back on the table.

"You've been well, I hope?"  Did she really though?


Abe

[ Does she really, though? Perception + Empathy. ]
Dice: 7 d10 TN6 (1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 10) ( success x 3 )


Molly

As a matter of fact, she did.  In some way.  The wishes for his well-being were tinged with reluctance and shame, but the sentiment is genuine none the less.


Abe

Abe keeps looking at her. His chin slips and his head falls another few degrees, eating up a few more inches of his face behind his crossed forearms. His nose now sits them smashed up against it. To say he is reading her poker face is too sterile. That's gamesmanship. There is something deeper there. It isn't about a ledger, wins and losses, black and red. He wants to understand how she has been effected by what has happened.

Abraham's voice would be muffled if he spoke. He doesn't. He keeps watching her, closely, and seems to pan away what she has just said in favor of the glimmering truths beneath it. He is waiting for her to say something.

What?

Something meaningful. Something that has nothing to do with social niceties and strained conceits that either of them could possibly be well.

Abraham could watch her for some time. His eyes dip, though, watching how she is holding that glass. A life preserver? A weapon? A security blanket?


Molly

Distraction would be a better word for the glass that she kept in her hand.  Fingernails painted a soft baby-blanket pink and clipped short and neat tapped silent and gentle against its side, shifted droplets of condensation to and fro until they'd slide to collect on the wire tabletop beneath.  He didn't answer her, just tucked his face behind his arms and watched carefully.  Waited for what she had to say.

Molly looked back and her brow furrowed as silence filled the space that a conversational answer would have otherwise.  This stalemate, this staring at one another, lasted for more than a dozen seconds.  It wore something, some kind of resolve, just a little bit, and Abe would find a momentary glimmer of worry and exhaustion and loss in Molly's eyes before she reigned it in and looked away-- off to traffic that began to move after the change of traffic signals.

"I can't sleep anymore," she confessed.  Her voice was mellow and even, just as conversational as it had been before.  Intentionally so, either for the sake of avoiding drawing the attention of passers by, or because she didn't want to show him how affected she was, even as she was telling him in plain language.

"It's in my dreams, what you showed me.  In the corners and the shadows, too, not just under the streets."

Her eyes found his again, and looked part-accusing when she asked:  "What did you do?"


Abe

Abraham lifts his chin, straightens his neck, and rolls back a bit. His arms loosen into a wider loop and hold his knees to his chest when he goes so, so that his feet sort of dangle in those black sneakers, tapping on the edge of his seat.

This all means he can speak without his voice being muffled.

"Last night three kids got shot on a corner out deep on East Colfax. Maybe two or three miles from here? A prostitution bust got five women from South Korea sent over to an ICE lockup for deportation and the citizen running the place is already out of bail with no human trafficking charges. A cop got shot making a routine traffic stop and they found the car dumped out on Route 46. That was all going to happen whether I picked up the paper to read about it this morning or not," he says, like he is reciting a litany. The end of some black mass, pray for them, it will do something.

"You aren't seeing anything that wasn't already there. You wish you couldn't see it?" He means for the question to be answered, but is already interrupting himself.

"What were you looking for? What did you think you were going to find? What's your own shadow look like?" It's a litany of questions, a grand inquisition, now. He still manages to look calm, even as he presses her, backing her into a corner with each insistent and persistent interrogation. The last one hangs there, defying gravity because it has its own pull.


Molly

[Self-Control: Corners aren't fun to be in] 
Dice: 4 d10 TN6 (8, 9, 9, 10) ( success x 4 )


Molly

The recent suffering of local humanity is laid out, and Molly takes the news in as evenly as she would were she reading it from the newspaper with a morning coffee in the comfort of her own home.  It was likely that much of that wasn't news to her.  Molly worked the emergency room at a hospital downtown, she saw the immediate aftermath of violence and devastation in this city, even before she had her eyes opened to the deeper, hidden causes for so much of that misery.

Then came the questions, and though Abraham was still curled into his chair it was one question after the other, almost demanding of answers, like he would put her in a corner to find them and each question dropped was a fence erected to keep her there.

Most people hate being put on the spot, but Molly didn't even bat an eyelash.  She looked at him flatly, took another sip of her beer, and uncrossed her legs so that she could lean forward toward the table, toward Abraham as well.

"I wasn't prepared for the level of what you showed me.  I wanted a glimpse behind the curtain, and instead you held me still so I could watch the entire fucking opera."  Her gaze was cool and sad both, with a lingering dollop of accusation.  Like she was to remind him that maybe it wasn't nearly so dismissable an offense as it was being played to be.

"I seek the truth, what I need to know to keep myself safe.  I have no goddamn idea what I'm ever going to find, but usually it's valuable and useful.  This, though?"  Her hand left her glass so she could tap a pretty pink fingernail against her temple.  "This isn't equipped for what you did.

"So, I'll ask again.  What did you do?"


Abe

"Keep yourself safe?  You want an umbrella. You could just keep out of the rain. I made it so that you couldn't lie to yourself. Whatever you saw's already there. I just made you look at it," Abe says. She has him talking.

She'd done a bit of it herself. She had tapped her head, said she wasn't ready. "But-" a pause- "And," rephrasing, "you're still here. You have to be a little fucking crazy to survive all this," he says.

All this. That other world.

"If you want to keep yourself safe, seek the lies. Wrap yourself up in them, nice and safe, alright?" Shaking his head and letting go of his knees, he stands up, the back of his legs sending the chair clattering across the floor.


Molly

"The lies are exactly that," she said, and her tone was sharpened by the fact that the man was shaking his head and standing.  Tense, because she was worried that he was going to walk away after having only sat for a few minutes.  She didn't have the answers, there was no cure for the lack of sleep and the stress and paranoia that she'd suffered.  Somehow she was associating Abraham with an answer that would help with the rest, and that he may simply walk away had her worried.

"There's no safety in them," she said bitterly, and straightening and adjusting her posture so she was sitting still, but positioned in a way that she could stand promptly as well.  Another table on the other side of the patio held four people, and they glanced over when Abraham stood abruptly enough to make his chair tip and clatter and scrape across the pavement.  Molly ignored them, kept her eyes on Abraham's instead.

"Remember in the park, how I told you the way back's caved in?  You said that isn't so, but I disagree.  That is why I don't seek the lies.  I already had them, and look at where I am now."  Ghouled to a Madman, in debt to others, head full of secrets and knowledge that has been protected from humankind for many a century.

"I don't--," she started, but then stopped and scowled hard.  Lifted her pint to drink deep until it drained to 1/3 full, and finally stood as well.  "Look, I had no idea what I was getting into with you, but here we are now.  You're..."  She glanced to the table again-- they had taken a keen interest in what looked like a possible dispute between lovers, and Molly didn't appreciate the attention, didn't want to be overheard.

"Should we walk?"


Abe

"You're not dipping your toes in shark-infested waters. You're diving in. You're chum," insistent.
And you're full of shit," Abraham says next, shaking his head, and he says it louder than all the rest. Louder than the music playing through the bar and out those front windows onto the patio.

"No. We shouldn't. Not if all you want is to be safe," he answers. "Definitely not if you want to be safe," and with that he turns away and toward the door, walking off, leaving his chair overturned and where he had been standing empty.


Molly

Accused of being chum and full of shit both, Molly stood with a flat scowl on her face and watched Abraham turn and head for the bar door, to go inside the establishment rather than spend more time out on the patio with her.  With Molly, the Liar, She Who Is Full Of Shit and maybe or maybe doesn't want to be safe.

The four at the table-- three men and a woman-- watched with mingled interest and sympathy while what they assumed to be the boyfriend stood and left this red-haired girl to tend to the tipped chair and the fact that she was walked away from.  One of the men raised eyebrows and asked if she was alright.  Molly ignored him, righted Abe's chair, and walked inside a half a minute after him.

Wherever Abraham may have drifted once inside the building, Molly made her way to the bar first with her half-finished pint glass.  She leaned against the counter and smiled tight and closed-lipped at the tender when she approached.  There was a brief exchange between the red-haired nurse and the black-haired, multi-tattoo'd bartender, and by the end of it Molly had returned her glass and paid off a tab that she'd opened because she didn't know how long she'd be here.

This gives Abraham a good two to three minutes before Molly came to stand a few feet from his side, looking down through the glass of the pinball machine that had grabbed his attention.  Her hands were tucked into the back pockets of those bright white shorts, and a brown satchel purse was strapped over one shoulder instead ofa cross the chest, and tucked against the curve of her waist.

She'd stand quietly nearby, gauging to see if he'd move away again, and when she found that he didn't she spoke in a tone of voice that came renewed from taking time to gather your thoughts and straighten your points.

"I've left you without context, Abe.  I can't go back to pretending  I don't know anything because I'm too wrapped up in the affairs around here."  As she spoke, she kept her eyes down on wherever that little silver ball was being propelled by bumpers and triggers and brightly flashing ramps.

"You're far from the first of your kind that I know.  They're the 'horrible' I was telling you about.  If I try to pretend I know nothing, then I lose what defenses I have and turn myself into a sacrificial lamb for when They eventually come to collect.  I sought knowledge to keep myself safe-- not as a defense, but as a weapon and a currency.  To keep myself as ahead of the curve as I can be."


Abe

"Lambs can grow horns. Sounds like that has been going well for you," pressing the left, then the right, then the left button again in furious succession. He plays the pinball game as well.

"So, you find out what you can about me, what I am and what I can do, and then you parlay that shit out the next time you have a close call with Horrible & Co? I'm not a fucking Cliff Notes," Abraham continues.

Abraham sighs, though, as the ball makes its way past his defenses and waits to again be flung into the field of battle.

"I saw you when I showed you. Relentless. You want to know. You can tell yourself you're doing it to keep yourself safe, that I made you watch the show, but you're a bloodhound. It's the hunt. The thrill, so don't pretend at innocence," he says, punctuating it with another pull at the pin that springs forward to start the game again.

"Wild dogs get shot, though. Trust me, I know," he says as he starts trigger-fingering the flippers on the game.


Molly

"I'm not going to sell you out, if that's what you're worried about."  Her tone of voice was closed and quieter than it had been when they were out on the patio.  Before she had been even and calm in tone so that the public ear wouldn't pay mind to them.  Now she was quiet not because she was afraid of being overheard, but because she was thoughtful.  Maybe she felt a bit scolded, too, but mostly she was introspective as he called her out on being a bloodhound.

She's quiet long enough for him to play his way through much of another round of pinball.  Then, finally, Molly broke her silence with a small burst of frustration in her vocals and heart both.

"Fine, so maybe I have to be a fucking know-it-all.  It doesn't matter, the situation I'm in doesn't change any.  It just makes it that much more my own goddamn fault that I'm here in the first place.  I know that, don't make me fucking admit it out loud."

The frustration fizzled and faded.  She took her hands from her pockets and put them on the edge of the pinball machine instead, no place that they would obstruct his view, but holding onto the machine as though it could help support her, or prove to be something solid enough to keep her present and focused.

"I know of the War.  I know of the worries, the recent goings on in your World.  I know what the Beast Below does and that so many more people than just myself know about it too, and that it scares the shit out of people more mighty than I could be.

For the first time since they'd switched from patio to bar interior, Molly's eyes sought out Abe's own.  "I don't want to be put out of my misery, Abe."


[[ SCENE CURRENTLY UNFINISHED -- May retroactively wrap another time ]]

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